Monday, November 12, 2007

MOVED.

All it took was a smile.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Who's the idiot who said uni life is slacker than A'level or O'level periods.


Haven't been updating much about life. Because life in general, is just mad. I think so far for every week there is at least 1 presentation. And everyday seems like it's Alevels. I don't think the A's is as stressful as this either. I seriously can't wait for the holidays even if it is just a month. Maybe I overestimated myself. I shouldn't be joining 2 CCAs - and one I'm not even that interested in?

And so many things have happened just in the past.. 9 weeks?

A rollercoaster ride. That's my life in the past 2 months. Drama? Maybe. Unexpected? Crazy? Definitely. I'm a peace-loving person. I cannot take too much in such a short period of time haha. I need to regain my sanity.....

I used to be someone who can trust people easily but now? I feel like I've changed. It's sad, but I guess that's life. I've been sheltered for far too long. No wonder in PLMGS our school song mentioned 'oh when we leave these sheltering walls we go with fearlessness'. How true.. just that the fearlessness part was only momentary for me, heh.

Oh and during Thursday's TWC presentation on Nanotechnology - Prof said to the class I was the best speaker of the group surprise surprise of the century. But its all thanks to God because seriously without Him I could never have survived past weeks of presentations, quizzes and projects. I've been deliberating again and again to myself if I've made the right choice to enter into this school and course.... and I finally realized that I've been put here for a reason, and I won't give up until I find out what it is... Maybe I've found it, maybe I've not. But no matter what, I'll put my trust in Him and let Him lead me all the way through. I trust He'll bring me through and it'll be very dumb if I give up just like that.

But I know, I won't make STUPID decisions again. Its a promise I make myself, and I'll keep to it. I just need... more strength to go through all this. TWC report, article report, personal journal, LTB mid-term quiz next week... YES I can do it.

/pls ignore the ramblings above.

Labels: life, personal, uni

All it took was a smile.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Labels: personal

All it took was a smile.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

My life's a total mess.

I need to clear things up. Get my priorities right. Make the correct decisions. Don't make silly mistakes.

Like today.

I made the most stupidest decision in my life. And I think I'll regret this for a long long time.

I miss those days before I entered S/MU. Everything's peaceful, everything's going fine, with you.... but now? Uni life's indeed crazy...

Labels: life, personal, uni

All it took was a smile.

Sunday, September 09, 2007

A\IESEC Jumps+ar+ Induction camp was CRAZY. There was really, really bad cross-dressing (and I mean really REALLY bad) and they were made to do all kinds of stuff that were..... so so wrong (seducing on a chair, pole-dancing.. and these 2 are very mild already) And after that was sculling - an activity where people would challenge each other who can drink finish a cup of beer the fastest.. Thank goodness I didn't drink - went to the playground instead to have a good long girl-to-girl chat with XT until 2am hee.

But my group people are fun... but too bad most of us from different universities. Networking was really fun. Then after the sculling we went to the canteen to TALK TALK talk talk talk ..... there was this graduate who came to chat with us too - shared her eye-opening experience in Canada's A\IESEC which was far worse but more exciting than Singapore's. Singapore is considered mild case already for the cross-dressing and parties.. So we chatted until 430am - then the N\TU people had to go off and we were left with SM\U peeps. Then this SM\U 2nd-yr guy joined us and the four of us talked with the seniors 'till SUNRISE. We literally watched the sun rise..... so there goes our night. Didn't sleep AT ALL for the entire night. Can't believe I could tahan so long.

And then we all decided to go home in the morning because we were too shag. LOL. Then after the 1 and a half hour train ride from Sembawang to Simei, I showered and went immediately to church. -.- Super duper shagged now. Just returned from lunch after church. And L\TB project's letter of intent is STILL not done properly. Sien. OK I cannot stand it anymore I shall take a NAP. Zzzzzz HOW. Come to SM\U I no life already. :(

Labels: life, uni

All it took was a smile.

Saturday, September 01, 2007

SM\U is really starting to turn me into a SM\Ugger. -.- Activites are increasing, projects are piling up, class participation points is getting on my nerves (especially for FA class) and everything clashes with everything... I'm even having project meetings on a Sunday.... that's saying something....

Got accepted into A\IESEC, but induction camp clashes with archery beginners' course.

I want to join kendo, but it clashes with SMUCF corporate meetings. And kendo's pretty strict about attendance and commitment - which is something I definitely can't give. Kendo's saturday trainings are sure to clash with archery too.

Conclusion? I'll join kendo or fencing next year instead. Hope they accept me.

And I'm seriously interested in rotaract's OCIP to rural china next summer. Always wanted to visit rural china and experience their lifestyle. Once in a lifetime's experience ;)

So many activities, so little time, so many projects, so many deadlines.

And I can't find my MComm books - seriously my school bookstore is cheating my feelings. When I asked for the books on Mon they tell me they are out of stock and to come back on Friday. When I did on Friday, and they say out of stock and that I should come back next week or find somewhere else. -.-||| And I have a test - a writing assignment next Wednesday which requires me to READ the text. How to when I don't have the books :(

RAHHHH. SM\U should be called STRESSFUL MAN! university.

Anyway I like the SM\U library. Very conducive to sleep.

Labels: life, uni

All it took was a smile.

Saturday, August 25, 2007

HAPPY NINETEENTH BIRTHDAY DEAREST CHAOTABEAN!! :DDD
Love you love you love you! We've known each for .. let's see, 6 years and COUNTING! So happy that we're still in touch and meeting up regularly ;) Thank God I met you in GB through Jess, if not life would be really different w/o ya :) God bless you dearr.. and hope you enjoyed our celebration just now.. there's even Part2 on Wednesday, LOL - but I have kendo on that day.. hopefully I can rush down after my class yeah!

Slept like at 7am this morning and woke up at 1230pm - but celebration for Wendy went pretty well yay! First we drove over to her place at 12am midnight and surprised her with a POWERPUFF GIRLS birthday cake. Then we fetched her back to Weilin's place and had chocolate fondue, card games and played pool from like 12am to 4am before driving out to east coast park. Played sparkles, but aiya our fireworks didn't work in the end -.- But the sky was amazing that night, full of glittering stars.... Sat on the rocks, chat chat, enjoyed the seabreeze before heading back at like 6am. Oh I finally saw Zorro after so longgg... he's grown so big and handsome! LOL huskies are like that I guess - they grow super fast.

And yesterday afternoon was SM/U CCA Day.. quite happening. LOL put my name down in alot of mailing lists but I think the ones that I'm most prolly following up on are CF, Rotaract, Kendo, Archery and Recreational Fishing hee. Maybe AIESEC, but not really sure what it is about though, lol. Ah.... and there are many many projects coming up. Feeling stressed but still am in holiday mood though :( Gotta wake myself up.....-slap slap-

Labels: hotbeans, life, uni

All it took was a smile.